DRAGÃO QUE TE SEGUE

GATOS DE GATHO!!!

Umas das coisas que eu mais adoro são gatos e eu adoro mais ainda personagens felinos, como Umbral, da webcomic Gatho, de Gabriel Kolbe. Então, enquanto a história do Gabriel não sai do hiato indefinido postergado para a próxima geração, estive pensado na antiga fanfic que escrevi para Gatho e me lembrei que eu gostaria de ver mais personagens gatíneos que pudessem fazer parte da história, até agora sem nenhuma indicação se haveria ou não outros gatos do lugar de onde Umbral, a coisa mais linda do mundo, veio. Então, pensando numa possível comissão que eu não tenho dinheiro para pagar, resolvi simplesmente descrever como eu gostaria que esse outros possíveis gatíneos poderiam ser, incluindo Umbral, apenas para tirar isso da minha cabeça um pouco. Mas, quem sabe um dia a sorte não sorri pra mim e eu possa então colocar as minhas mãos nuns desenhos supimposos demais que esse cara inoxidável que o Gabriel é poderia fazer pra mim. E eu ia adorar fazer adesivos com esses gatinhos e colar em todos os lugares (mentira, quando eu gosto dos adesivos eu não mexo neles de jeito nenhum!). Então, vamos ao resumo!

LETTER TO DANIEL KRISTIANSEN

Dear Daniel,

I don’t even know if this is your real name or just one you had picked up, but I want to say… I saw what happened. Once more, when I was just checking if you were okay, I discovered that your account at Deviant Art was deactivated, and not only that, you had deleted others accounts as well, like twitter, pinterest and others. This worried me. Since you had scared me deleting all your art, all your hard work from Deviant Art some years ago, I was worried that something bad had happened to you. When you could come back with new art, I was so glad for you, you was trying once more to make art. I really hoped that you could keep it and you had make a lot of progress! Unfortunately, it’s seems it wasn’t enough for you, right? Oh god…

And you know what? I understand. Life isn’t easy, we always want more, to do bigger things and society demand us to make a lot of money out of it… or we will be out of it. Eventually, it’s sad for me to see something like this happening to you again; in fact, it breaks my heart seeing the world doing it again with one more person… There’s nothing that I fear the most than life itself. People had imagined life as something great, as something beautiful, as something simple and something wonderful. Life isn’t that, at least, not only that. Life can be cruel, can be about misery, can be about psychological and physical torture, can be about ignorance and many others bad things and you can die before seeing how great life can be. How life can be great if you were born to die with nothing great in your life? Where are these great things when someone is trying to kill you without even meeting you, because of your religion, your culture, your “skin color”, your sexuality…? It’s not fair to be alive. Knowing this, I get worried about you. You may need some help to achieve what you want for your life; you may need some support to keep yourself strong against bad thoughts, you may need something to keep going whatever it is and then, life didn’t care about it. You would feel lonely and given up on your dreams, on your hard work, on how far you went… Guess everyone will pass through something like this; you can’t have everything and you will need to give up on something if you want something. It’s not fair, because all you want is to be happy, to be successful and… somehow, it doesn’t happen. Time pass and what you wanted fade slowly until it disappear. Most people in the world don’t follow their dreams; they just live, doing what they need to live. Guess that people call it “being an adult”.

I don’t know what happened to you this time and I really hope you are safe and sound, just had given up on some ‘stupid draws’ you may say, but, that’s not how I see it. When I first met your drawings, it was easy to spot that they wasn’t that refined, but they had something special. They were sweet, kind, simple. They had passed to me this feeling of paradise, simple, but great, unforgettable! I wanted to see more of it! And I had saved it on my favorites to look at it later. I had forgot for some time and then, when I finally go back to see it, they were all gone… I couldn’t believe something like that had happened. As an artist, I was so shocked! You really had given up on all of it. That was part of you, it was your hard work, the first steps you had taken so far and then… all gone. People may not be proud of what they had done before, no matter how much that was important, people will look at it as something so ugly that they would erase from earth to forget they were so bad before. However, what is the problem with something a little ugly, with something not finished yet? You didn’t know how to do it before! You needed to make mistakes to learn something new and… yet… People may not be satisfied with it.

I already saw a few artist complaining about how their art isn’t magic, that they don’t have any time to spend doing art for someone for free, on how they need to dedicate all their time doing commissions to have money… Do you see? When people will ever understand that making art isn’t easy? I know… No matter how much I love comics, drawing and illustrations and pretending to make some draws to make a comic out of little novel I had write, I know I’m not into drawing like you did. I just pass a lot of time doing anything but drawing… but when it comes to write, I just can’t stop! And lately, not even that… I should finish my book once and for all, but I hadn’t feeling into it. Sometimes you just want life to work by itself, unfortunately, that isn’t something that time will heal or help you out at all. I don’t know what to do or what will happen. Time is passing so fast and I had been feeling that I don’t have any strong left… The last thing I have is my novel made by someone who didn’t went to college, who didn’t have read as many books people say you should (I prefer comics, by the way). If something happen, I don’t know what will happen with me… I already had given up on life a long time ago and I don’t feel that I will ever fit on the mold. I don’t want it. I just want to be in peace with myself and fitting on the mold will just make me feel with no peace left. So, what exactly I am supposed to do? Well, I am just waiting to see if something change, if life can be only about this and that nothing else will happen. I’m afraid I will ending up disappointed, but I will know for sure that life isn’t something as great as people say… it should have something more… And you can say that I care about you because of this, because I want something special to happen in your life, that one thing you need so much to keep drawing…

Why would I just write this instead of trying to find you? I am not good at this thing called friendship, in fact, not good at all. You can know some people here and there, but I can’t call then friends, I really dislike using the word friend. How can I be friend with someone living so far away from me? If I was a good friend, I should go to where you live and pull your ear right now and asking you at the top of my voice: What the hell is happening with you?! *sigh* Probably there’s no one else to ask you so nicely about it and sit close to you and hear what actually happened. You seem a kind person… Even though people aren’t as nice people think they can be, your art had spoken to me for you. You had tried to make comics about friends, about love, about happiness and, some way, you had fail at it. You had fail so hard that you had given up on your art; and, I hope, is trying something else. No problem, I guess. You do what you want to do with your life. But now it seems something serious. If you deleted your others accounts, how I will know that you are fine? I am worried about you. Even if I am just being too dramatic and all, if I just could hear that you are fine and your drawings are safe, that would be awesome…

Sometimes… Sometimes I just don’t want to believe that life can play with us like it’s funny to loose what we care the most and then we will be forced to leave it behind like it was nothing… It hurts me so bad… We only have here and now to do things, but things aren’t working well and we need time to make it work and… time is over, it’s already time to die and leave all behind… or, you grow up and you will not have any time left to keep your childhood dreams, it’s time to give it to someone else… People love to keep saying things like “keep believing” when they achieve their dreams, but, what happens to everyone else that couldn’t make it? Just living a normal life, I guess… A life without dreams, without magic, without imagination… Sometimes I just wish that god could give the basics to people live: food, water, good clothes, some place to lay down and sleep in peace, have access to knowledge and feel loved. Unfortunately, it seems the last one is the hardest one to achieve. You can live a whole life without a single drop of love. There’s nothing more terrifying for me than life without love, without respect, without feeling that our dreams are possible. That’s all I can say, on and on, because until now, I couldn’t stop thinking that somehow god is too far alway to actually help us with what we need the most: love. Your art was so beautiful, lovely! Yet, it seems I’m a fool who love things nobody else likes… Maybe I’m just no one, someone who will be forgotten; and someday the hope to create a fair world where people can find happiness, comfort and help not so far away from where they live will die with me. Is it too much to ask for a better world?

As I said before, I understand if this is what you want… It’s so hard to live and what you did was probably the best you could do… I really wanted to help you somehow… and I’m just miserable, I can’t talk to you directly. Life is so unfair that this letter never will find you… Maybe it’s better this way. On the other hand, the hat boy, as I like to call it, the first draw a put here, will always be my desktop, on computer and smartphone. Every day I will look at it and remember you, to still have hope, hope that someday things will be better. It’s impossible to live without hope when you are just as neurotic as I am. I’m still afraid that I never will see life being fair the way I want, but I still will wait to see you drawing again. If there is a god above us, he should know what is happening with you and help you somehow, since I can do nothing. I would like to know how he would help, it’s so hard to say if god is helping or not… Things still need to happen, no matter how much we want them or not… You not drawing anymore is still possible, with or without god’s help.

I don’t like to believe in miracles… Not because they are impossible, they can be possible. My problem is with that part where they are so rare that you can live without noticing them. I really would like to see this one happening… I want to see you making art and smiling, the same way I did when I looked at it. Guess not in this life, but yet, it doesn’t cost to dream a little.

Sleep well Daniel,

maybe I can find you drawing in there. :o]

From the person who admire your work,

Victório Anthony.

NOVO CAPÍTULO NA MINHA VIDA

Aiai... Se prepara que lá vem bomba!

Tá feio mas dá pra entender o texto que vou colocar entre as imagens, tá bom?!

Como eu posso dizer algo aqui?

Há tanto ainda pra aprender e eu estou apenas no começo!

Eu ainda nem sei como funciona!

Agora eu tenho uma mesa digitalizadora,

\o/ hurray! \o/
*pense no pica-pau descendo as cataratas do Niágara num barril*

E esta é a minha letra escrita com ela

(tá feio que dói!)

Mas ainda estou apenas treinando,

me acostumando

e estou usando o paint da microsoft,

pois o paint tool sai ficou no outro notebook.

OTL...

A partir de hoje começo algo novo

que espero um dia ser algo tão comum quanto a escrita...

usar o ctrl+Z

mesmo quando eu estiver longe do computador! :oD

Posso ser ambicioso por querer algo pra mim

quando deveria estar pensando em usar

o dinheiro em coisas mais urgentes...

Mas às vezes tudo o que eu queria

era realizar meus sonhos... :o[

Muitos sonhos infelizmente são difíceis demais de serem realizador,

demandam muito tempo, dinheiro

e qualidades que muitas vezes não temos.

Esta mesa digitalizadora custou R$300,00.

$_$

Eu não tinha R$300,00 e não tenho trabalho.

Tiver que juntar usando dinheiro que não era meu,

sem pedir emprestado,

nem dizer exatamente para o que era... :o[

Minha família nem sabe direito o que eu quero da vida,

não dão suporte,

nem ao menos perguntam como eu me sinto...

Pelo menos eles não exigem

que eu sai trabalhando a torto e a direito. :o]
(Escrive errado ali, mas não vou concertar!) :oP

Devo tudo ao meu irmão mais novo que,

mesmo sem saber,

me ajudou a dar esse pequeno passo para um homem,

mas um grande passo para que eu continue sonhando!

:oD
Obrigado!

14/02/2017

Deveria ter sido em Janeiro,

no dia 17,

meu aniversário de 26 anos.

Meu aniversário não é lá grande coisa...

Mas eu havia prometido a mim mesmo que tentaria

ao menos dar o primeiro passo

para começar a minha futura HQ,

adaptada do livro que estou escrevendo

e que ainda não pude terminar.

Dei o primeiro passo e espero que nos próximos 7 anos

eu possa evoluir satisfatoriamente

na arte de desenhar e ilustrar

que tanto admiro! u.u

Homestuck reference here!

*dor*

Ai ai, minha mão já está doendo...

Faz tempo que eu não escrevo

e talvez o esforço repetitivo faça doer ainda mais...

:o/

Nem tenho um espaço adequado

para escrever ou desenhar...

Estou improvisando aqui

com uma mesa normal,

alta demais pro notebook,

e sentado na minha cama,

ou minhas costas vão doer.

OTL <= que dor!

Queria que as pessoas falassem mais

sobre como elas se adaptaram

às adversidades,

mas elas só conseguem dizer:

"continue sonhando,

um dia você chega lá".

Sá porra é difícil! >:o[

17/01/2014 à 14/02/2024

Vamos ver o quanto eu melhorarei até lá...

Espero que eu consiga realmente melhorar,

já que estou começando

praticamente do zero!

Xo[

Talvez fosse melhor ter um curso de desenho

ou ser um desenhista desde pequeno

como muitos fazem.

Até queria encontrar

um curso especializado

em desenho digital

pra ver se eu me desenrolo...

Mas não encontrei, :oP

Deve ter vários por aí,

mas a bem da verdade é que a profissão não é valorizada.

Eu mal consegui encontrar um lugar pra comprar essa mesa!

Tem site pra tudo que é lado,

mas em loja mesmo

só Santa Ifigênia!

Xo/

Heh, nem sei como trocar a ponta da caneta ainda.

Eu devia poder ver isso no CD que veio com a mesa,

mas o leitor do meu notebook usado

não está funcionando.

Apesar de que baixei o programa direto do site,

ainda preciso dos tutoriais pra entender melhor

isso aqui.

Então, o que mais eu posso falar?

Bem, já tenho em mente o estilo que vou seguir

e a qual quero chegar um dia:

REALISTA

O que, por si só, é surreal demais! T^T

Eventualmente,

devo também fazer desenhos menores

e aprender com eles também,

mas só de poder começar

e ter a oportunidade de chegar lá em algum momento...

Xo]

*feliz feliz*

Talvez eu nunca chegue a ter

um estilo impressionante,

mas se eu chegar a ter metade do estilo das pessoas

que admiro tanto,

já me dou por satisfeito.

Sempre com passinhos de bebê! =(^ºωº^)=

E assim deixo estes

guardanapos virtuais

como memória de que um dia eu comecei

(e nunca cheguei lá)

e experimentei o prazer

de fazer algo que antes me era impossível.

ºuº)b

A todos que lerem

um muito obrigado

de coração!

Bo]
<3 <3 <3

PRONTO! CHEGA!

DEU POR HOJE!

Meu Deus, quanta dor de cabeça!

(@﹏@)

OTL

Ainda não sei por onde vou, se vou ter mesmo a chance de continuar até o fim ou se serei brutalmente interrompido como nas outras tantas vezes, mas é um passo na direção certa, isso é o que importa...
Se não a neura me devora e não sobra nada! @_@

Da loucura a sanidade louca! XoD

Até a próxima! o/

VARIEDADES: LISTA DE PAPELARIAS DE SÃO PAULO - SP

Na época em que estudei no curso de Design de Interiores, uma das coisas que tive de aprender é que não é qualquer papelaria que realmente vende material para desenho técnico e possui uma boa variedade de tipos de papel, por exemplo, para projetos grandes. Como estou fazendo uma pequena limpeza nas minhas coisas antigas, pois é algo tão velho, anos 2008 e 2009, que, ao me mudar para o Ceará durante 1 ano e 6 meses, me desliguei completamente; decidi ao menos guardar a lista das papelarias que me deram no meu 1º ano no curso. Eu até gostaria de voltar a fazer o curso, mas sei que do jeito que as coisas vão, retomar um curso que exige tantos recursos como aquele exigiu não poderá ser uma possibilidade pelos próximos anos... A seguir, a lista que estava no meu antigo caderno que usei no curso. Não faço ideia se o endereço ainda permanece o mesmo ou se a papelaria fechou nesse meio tempo.

LISTA DE PAPELARIAS

Papelaria Universitária

Site: http://www.papelariauniversitaria.com.br/localizacao

• Rua Maria Antônia, 263 - Consolação
  Telefone: 3257-1844
• Rua Humberto I, 1012 - Vila Mariana
  Telefone: 5571-9015
• Rua José Antônio Coelho, 872 - Vila Mariana
  Telefone: 5539-4559
• Rua Casa do Ator, 65 -Vila Olímpia
  Telefone: 3842-3139

Visitex

Site: http://www.visitex.com.br/

• Rua Major Sertório, 453 - Vila Buarque (Centro)
  Telefones: 3231-6810; 0800-701-18-15
  3255-9770 (SAC)

Misaspel

• Avenida Brigadeiro Faria Lima, 834 - Pinheiros
  Telefone: 3815-6755

Rosário

• Rua Coronel Xavier de Toledo, 242 - Centro
  Telefone: 3255-2188

Artesco

Site: http://www.artesco.com.br/

• Rua Domingos de Moraes, 2248 - Vila Mariana
  Telefone: 5048-1599

Papel Total

• Rua Maria Antônia, 238 - Consolação
  Telefone: 3259-1687
• Rua Humberto I, 1072 - Vila Mariana
  Telefone: 5082-1372

Pegetec

• Rua Aurora, 601 - Centro
  Telefones: 221-8777; 222-3389

OBS.: Vende por atacado.

Três Rios

• Rua Três Rios, 121 - Bom Retiro
  Telefone: 227-0741

O Projetista

Site: http://www.oprojetista.com.br/

• Rua Barão de Itapetininga, 255 - 8º andar - Sala 815 - Centro
  Telefone: 3237-0415; 3237-2262
  3257-2659 (Vendas)

Papelaria Japuíba

Site: http://www.japuibapapelaria.com.br/

• Rua Antônio Lopes Marins, 77 - Casa Verde
  Telefone: 3966-6544

Espero que, se algum interessado chegou até aqui, que esta lista tenha sido útil de alguma forma.

Eu não pertenço a lugar nenhum...

Até a próxima! :o]